WindSeeker (windseeker03) wrote in guide_dogs,
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Hurting

Hey guys,

I know I haven't posted here in years, but I need an outlet.
Kazzi, my beloved black labrador, who just turned 8 on the 19th, has to retire soon.

The Seeing Eye came out to visit last week and confirmed what I've been suspecting for the last 4 months (I was in job training and not really in a position to have us evaluated or have them start looking for a new dog) She has compressed disks in her lower back and goes too slowly in harness, but her work itself is still good. I'm hoping maybe that I can find some painkillers or treatment that will help us for the short term, as she seems ok for the most part out of harness.
On top of that, I've just moved to Philadelphia, a place I've never been and don't know anyone and am about to start my first job.

How do you do it? For those of you who've retired a dog? Every time I try to fill out the replacement application I start crying and can't finish it because it makes it "official". Hell, I'm sitting here crying now. Kazzi is a specialty dog, trained on my right, so its more difficult for them to find a match.

Hell, I went out on a limb and requested a specific breed, i.e. not a lab. I'm scared of getting another lab because I don't think I can handle it. I know I shouldn't have a preference because it will be harder yet for them to find me a dog, but thinking that the new dog will be different, of course I know it will be different because it won't be Kazzi. I'm just scared of this whole process and don't even feel ready for a new dog. With it being specially trained, it would take them 2 months at the least to train it, so its not like it will be soon anyway...

I don't know what to do.
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